The character of Lord Krishna who saw only the maternal affection in the demon witch Putana!
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Dearest Srila Prabhupada,
Please forgive me for not writing an offering sooner. I am most ill mannered and uncaring for not making it my most important duty to glorify and thank you.
The truth is I have no words to say what you mean to me.
Sometimes my heart is hard and I can not even remember who you are and can not realise the significance of what you’ve given me. And other times like when I was hearing the beautiful offerings I was thinking “Wow! This is Srila Prabhupada!”
Dear, Srila Prabhupada, as you know recently I have visited New Vrindavan and Gita Nagari. It was incredible and has left me inspired. But it has also left me anxious. All your devotees are serving you with such enthusiasm. Not a moment goes by where they are not thinking of how to advance further and thereby please you. My Lord, I want to please you very, very much. I want to come closer and closer to your lotus feet. I want to be a puppet in your hand guiding me in spreading the mercy of Lord Caitanya.
I know these requests are like a dwarf reaching for the moon; however I have full faith in your mercy and your superb guidance. How else would I be where I am now? If it were not for your causeless mercy no doubt I would still be a quiet bystander to the Hare Krishna Movement.
My dear Srila Prabhupada, please help me develop a spotless character. A character full of compassion, free from greed and envy. This is a tall order however, however painstaking and however long it takes I would like to be a model devotee. Someone for you and Guru Maharaja to be proud off.
Please forgive my multitudes of offences. All glories to your causeless mercy!
Your eternal servant
Sitala devi dasi
